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The demands of love

Dream. Love demands I dream The impossible dream.

I have to be willing to march into hell for love's heavenly cause. To make progress I have to surrender to Leela, the personification of both love and wisdom. Leela demands I do my best, be my best. What Leela demands may seem impossible. She has never demanded anything I wasn't ready to give, however impossible it may have seemed. Love has never demanded anything I wasn't delighted I gave. Giving in to love's impossible dreams always results in progress with love. Love's demands push me to my limits then beyond; that's the progress I make.

Sensory processing. Leela sometimes has to anesthetize me or otherwise adjust my sensory processing so I can meet her unreasonable demands. Leela has access to everything in me. Sensory processing is where the world reaches me. Unlike the world, it's easy to change. Working there Leela can change or create sensations. She can create a pain or make one go away. She can create or change any kind of sensation: sights, smells, sounds, anything. Leela can make me feel like I'm dying in agony if that's what I need. Or wrap me up in exquisitely subtle pleasure.

Patience. More than anything else, love demands my patience. Making progress with love demands a new level of patience. The processes of spiritual development are varied and unpredictable. They're mostly hidden. More than anything else I have to let them take their time, to rush nothing, to bide my time.

Have faith. Love also demands I have faith. I have seen and felt the power of love in my life. Love works miracles as if they were child's play. I have to remember that and have faith in love when love asks me to do the next impossible thing.

Present. Love demands that I be present. For most of my life I've been asleep. Now I'm struggling to be present. To be present I have to slow down. The slowing down love demands has nothing to do with how fast I move. It's an internal slowing down. Love stubbornly demands I stay right here with this moment and not get ahead of myself.