Waking up is wisdom

To be wise is to be awake. Waking up and wisdom are the same thing. Grasping that makes me more effective at gaining the thing they both are. No one can give me wisdom, I have to earn my own by paying attention. No one can wake me up; that's my job. Giving up on external teachers set wisdom free in me and I began waking up.

Wisdom's view

Years ago, wisdom gave me a koan: “Time is not what you think it is.” Then another: “Death is never a bad thing.” With those as a starting point, wisdom guided me to a life anchored in five dimensions. Wisdom aka wakefulness aka depth is the fifth.

The big picture is frozen, that's the nature of it: this moment is always this moment. The world is exactly like this every time I live this moment. So the news is not really news, it's this way every time. But it's news to me; memories all die with the body. Wisdom doesn't die: with every bit of waking up I'm more awake forever.

Death is neutral, a reset: my life starts over. If I got no wiser by living, I live the same life again. If I woke up even a little, I'm a more awake person; that changes how I live. Being wiser, I engage the world more deeply, so I keep waking up. Wiser or not, my choices & actions are self-perpetuating. I keep waking up or I don't; my choice.

Thinking v. engaging/wisdom

Thinking is using words inwardly, my inner monologue. Talking to myself sucks all my attention so I miss the world entirely, I just get empty mental figments: stories, ideas, categories, abstractions. That's all bullshit; everything in the world is specific. I begin living directly as I wake up, no longer separated from the world by words.

Thinking blocks engagement, making me miss obvious cues, stray off course, trip over stuff. I'm not even competent to walk down the sidewalk while I'm thinking. Engaging the world wakes me up. It makes me fluid & adaptable, ready to get deeper, wiser. Thinking keeps me stuck in the mucky shallows of four dimensions.

Changing the world

I am a doorway between me and the world. Who I really am is wisdom; everything else, including mind & body, is the world. My experience bridges that; it's the doorway. My experience is the world, to me; it's the ongoing act of consciousness.

The first koan wisdom gave me was “I am the world.” I needed a few years with the other two before it began to make sense. All I can know of the world is what my senses grasp directly. Everything else is just hearsay, mental figments. If I wake up and engage the world deeply, I change myself; that changes my experience. Only wisdom can change the world.